Random thoughts

I am wasting sleep time on the computer.

I miss people in Illinois but I hear it snowed and that sucks.

Faking a smile and decorating with the kids for a holiday that I won't get to spend with them is more than heartbreaking.

The ex...still hate him. Alot.

But in church the other day the preacher talked about hate and I realized I don't think I hate him. I really really pitty him. He has a really really shitty life and he doesn't even know it.

Because he misses out on things like Owen telling me I am more comfortable than his bed and falling asleep curled up on my lap like an overgrown lap dog.

When I mention church I can't help but hear the song "They say Jesus he drank wine and I bet we'd get along just fine" go through my head. (Jesus loves me and my tattoos.)

I need to find an affordable place to live that doesn't make me feel like I am paying every dime I have to live in a "luxery" apartment that really feels like living in the projects.

My hair is dirty and I need to wash it tomorrow.